this is why i can’t listen to music right now.

13 05 2008

I can’t listen to music without something coming in my way and stealing all the good thoughts i’ve worked so hard to collect.

Like this:
Sufjan Stevens : Casimir Pulaski Day

Golden rod and the 4-H stone
The things I brought you
When I found out you had cancer of the bone

Your father cried on the telephone
And he drove his car to the Navy yard
Just to prove that he was sorry

In the morning through the window shade
When the light pressed up against your shoulder blade
I could see what you were reading

Oh the glory that the lord has made
And the complications you could do without
When I kissed you on the mouth

Tuesday night at the bible study
We lift our hands and pray over your body
But nothing ever happens

I remember at Michael’s house
In the living room when you kissed my neck
And I almost touched your blouse

In the morning at the top of the stairs
When your father found out what we did that night
And you told me you were scared

Oh the glory when you ran outside
With your shirt tucked in and your shoes untied
And you told me not to follow you

Sunday night when I cleaned the house
I find the card where you wrote it out
With the pictures of your mother

On the floor at the great divide
With my shirt tucked in and my shoes untied
I am crying in the bathroom

In the morning when you finally go
And the nurse runs in with her head hung low
And the cardinal hits the window

In the morning in the winter shade
On the first of March on the holiday
I thought I saw you breathing

Oh the glory that the lord has made
And the complications when I see his face
In the morning in the window

Oh the glory when he took our place
But he took my shoulders and he shook my face
And he takes and he takes and he takes

this is the one that got me today:





hold it in.

10 05 2008

found these lyrics here.

check the song out here or here.

Jump into that water and see for yourself
Take a deep breath and hold it in, hold it in

She’s got a secret and she wants to tell
But I made a promise to hold it in, hold it in

Baby I’m in love and maybe it’s not to tell
Only thing that I can do is hold it in, hold it in

I was told that I’m a man now and I’m not allowed to cry
The only thing that I can do is hold it in, hold it in
Hah!

(Refrain)
Life is “Oh my God, if I tell him, he’ll tell her, and then she will know I like her!”
Good grief! I don’t think that I can take this heartbreak any longer
I will not hold it in
Hoo! Hoo! Hoo!

Well the couple with the baby and it’s no secret why
Neither one was able to hold it in, hold it in

Kids in the streets yeah they’re all getting high
Everybody’s screaming “hold it in, hold it in!”
Ha-hey!

(Refrain)

If there’s God, He’s embarrassed and it’s no secret why
The only thing that He can do is hold it in, hold it in

So I printed him a letter to be sent out to sea
Looking for a bottle to hold it in, hold it in
Ha!

(Refrain)





song of the day: Sara Bareilles – Love Song

3 01 2008

Head under water
And they tell me to breathe easy for a while
The breathing gets harder, even I know that
You made room for me but it’s too soon to see
If I’m happy in your hands

I’m unusually hard to hold on to
Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well, but you make this hard on me
I’m not gonna write you a love song
’cause you asked for it
’cause you need one, you see

I’m not gonna write you a love song
’cause you tell me it’s
Make or breaking this
If you’re on your way
I’m not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving I’m gonna need a better
Reason to write you a love song today

I learned the hard way
That they all say things you want to hear
And my heavy heart sinks deep down under you and
Your twisted words,
Your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry
Convinced me to please you
Made me think that I need this too
I’m trying to let you hear me as I am

I’m not gonna write you a love song
’cause you asked for it
’cause you need one, you see
I’m not gonna write you a love song
’cause you tell me it’s
Make or breaking this
If you’re on your way
I’m not gonna write you to stay
If all you have is leaving I’m gonna need a better
Reason to write you a love song today

Promise me that you’ll leave the light on
To help me see with daylight, my guide, gone
’cause I believe there’s a way you can love me
Because I say
I won’t write you a love song
’cause you asked for it
’cause you need one, you see

I’m not gonna write you a love song
’cause you tell me it’s make or breaking this
Is that why you wanted a love song
’cause you asked for it
’cause you need one, you see
I’m not gonna write you a love song
’cause you tell me it’s make or breaking this
If you’re on your way
I’m not gonna write you to stay
If your heart is nowhere in it
I don’t want it for a minute
Babe, I’ll walk the seven seas when I believe that
There’s a reason to
Write you a love song today